Breaking Out

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When I try to describe my personality, or explain to someone “who” I am, I have a really difficult time.  I am a study in contrasts and contradictions.  I make a statement about one of my traits, and with the next sentence completely contradict the first.  For example, I am very introverted and shy; however, I love being around people.  I love being involved in LARPing and taking part, but I hate being the center of attention.  I love parties and celebrations, but I am really uncomfortable in situations where the focus is on me (birthdays, for example).

Comfort-Zone

One thing that I am consistent with is not stepping out of my comfort zone.  Occasionally, I do, but I like my nice comfy little box.  It makes me happy, and leaving it is scary.  I have decided, though, at 42, that it is about damn time that I start doing more things that are outside my comfort zone, and I am going to try new things.  I did step way outside my comfort zone a few years ago when Todd asked me to try LARP-ing, and I loved it!  The worry I had with LARP-ing is that it requires a lot of improvisation, and I have a difficult time thinking on my feet in “make believe” land.  I have gotten better, but I have not been able to incorporate my own story line yet – partly because I don’t even know what it is yet.

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So, when it comes to stepping outside my comfort zone, I have been keeping a COLOSSAL secret.

GINORMOUS huge.

Like my family will wonder if they need to have me committed, HUGE.

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My Person

Today is Crindalyn’s birthday.  We are exactly six months apart in age.  She is an amazing mother, a genuine friend, a hard worker, and a beautiful soul – inside and out.

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How do you quantify a relationship that has spanned over a quarter of a century, through love, laughter, tears, heartbreak, job changes, marriage, divorce, kids, relocations, trauma, adventure, road trips, dreams, and reality?  You just can’t.  At least I can’t. Continue reading

The End of a Journey

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We are at our very best, and we are happiest, when we are fully engaged in work we enjoy on the journey toward the goal we’ve established for ourselves. It gives meaning to our time off and comfort to our sleep. It makes everything else in life so wonderful, so worthwhile.

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I started college immediately out of high school.  I quit after my first year because I just wasn’t ready to be a dedicated student, and I had absolutely no idea what I wanted to do with my life.  I went back to school a few years later and earned an Associates Degree, which worked just fine for the jobs I held. Continue reading