When I try to describe my personality, or explain to someone “who” I am, I have a really difficult time. I am a study in contrasts and contradictions. I make a statement about one of my traits, and with the next sentence completely contradict the first. For example, I am very introverted and shy; however, I love being around people. I love being involved in LARPing and taking part, but I hate being the center of attention. I love parties and celebrations, but I am really uncomfortable in situations where the focus is on me (birthdays, for example).
One thing that I am consistent with is not stepping out of my comfort zone. Occasionally, I do, but I like my nice comfy little box. It makes me happy, and leaving it is scary. I have decided, though, at 42, that it is about damn time that I start doing more things that are outside my comfort zone, and I am going to try new things. I did step way outside my comfort zone a few years ago when Todd asked me to try LARP-ing, and I loved it! The worry I had with LARP-ing is that it requires a lot of improvisation, and I have a difficult time thinking on my feet in “make believe” land. I have gotten better, but I have not been able to incorporate my own story line yet – partly because I don’t even know what it is yet.
So, when it comes to stepping outside my comfort zone, I have been keeping a COLOSSAL secret.
Like my family will wonder if they need to have me committed, HUGE.